LEDESMABABY

You ever feel like you aren’t good enough and wonder why? You try to talk yourself into believing that you are but you still don’t?

I’ve finally realized why I’ve always chosen to surround myself around people who talk down to me and make me think I am something less than them. I’m used to it. I’ve always been spoken to like that and it’s become “normal” when it shouldn’t be.

I brush off the harsh words as if it doesn’t bother me.

I move on as if I wasn’t hurt by it.

I go about my day as if nothing happened.

I tell myself that’s not what they meant.

I tell others I’m fine.

I tell myself to not sulk about it, move on.

How is one supposed to move on when someone, who is supposed to be one of the closest people in your circle, puts you down, says things that are hard to come back from?

“You don’t have what it takes”

“You won’t be able to do it”

“I’m only telling you this because I’m looking out for you”

“You’ll never make it”

“I’m not supporting you”

The list goes on…

All these phrases have more meaning behind them than one thinks. These messages can make someone feel…like nothing. Worthless.

I often catch myself seeking the approval of those who have hurt me to somehow make-up for what feels like something I’ve done.

Never seek someone else’s approval. Never let someone tell you how you should feel.